Thursday, April 30, 2009

Redang with Happy Memories of Jemimah

Seng Chor, Jordan and I will be joining Seng Chor's friends to Redang tomorrow, 1 May 2009. Exactly one year ago, I was there - with Jemimah in my womb. We went diving, snorkelling and swimming together. Af first, I was not looking forward to this trip at all. There will be many memories of her and it will be painful. I was feeling bad for the past few days - cried on and off, at work and home. This morning, I decided to take the happy memories of her with me. I will still be emotional but at least the memories would be special. It will be good to spend time with Jordan as well. He will definitely enjoy himself.

Happy Labour Day to all - whether you are working at home (especially, the Mums) or in the office!

Painting and Roof Fixing (Day 7) - Last Day

Last Day - Monday, 27 April 2009

Final touch-up.

Before they fixed the roof last Monday, the air-conditioning compressor and the Astro had to be taken down. The compressor was put up last Saturday, and the paint was touched up on Monday. The Astro will be re-installed today. So, poor Jordan couldn't watch Astro for about 2 weeks. He misses his Animal Mechanicals show. And my poor brother Alex couldn't watch his football matches as well.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Painting and Roof Fixing (Day 6)

(Saturday, 25 April 2009.)

Painting completed.

I was really happy with the blue paint but the finishing paint of the gate and grilles saddens me. We agreed on the blue colour but the supposedly 'brown' colour was chosen by Seng Chor without consulting us. He said that it was brown on the catalogue but it turned to be REDdish brown. We are extremely disappointed. My sister commented cynically - "Our house now looks like a Chinese Temple." Visitors will definitely never miss our house - it's the brightest in the row.

The new light chosen by Seng Chor is a consolation.
(By the way, red happens to be Seng Chor's favourite colour.)

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Painting and Roof Fixing (Day 5)

Day 4 (Thursday, 23 April 2009)

Lights were fixed.

Painting continues.

(No pictures were taken because I was sick.)

Day 5 (Friday, 24 April 2009)

Painting continues...

Front view...

Back of the house...

Painting and Roof Fixing (Day 3)

Roof is done.
Painting for the front part of the house has started - scraped old paint.

Wednesday, 22 April 2009

Painting and Roof Fixing (Day 2)

Roof is almost done...

Tuesday, 21 April 2009

Painting and Roof Fixing (Day 1)

Old green sun-roof was torn down.
Paint work at the back of the house has started...

Comment from Jordan - "Mummy, people mess my house.!"

Monday, 20 April 2009

Allergic to Amoxicillin

After taking the medication for my fever and throat infection for 2 days, I developed blisters and rashes (non-itchy) on my fingers and soles. I checked with my cousin who is a doctor and she suspected it was caused by a type of penicilin called Amoxicillin prescribed by my doctor. I was also feeling nauseu and dizzy for about 4 days. I went back to see the doctor yesterday. It is confirmed that the blisters and rashes are caused by Amoxicillin. From my past medical records, she found out that I have been prescribed the same medication before but I didn't react to it. It was odd. Anyway, I don't need to take the Amoxicillin anymore. She gave me medicine for the allergy instead. The photos below were taken today. The blisters are drying up, and there's no more pain.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Two months

Two months – that’s how long Jemimah has departed from us. 24th of every month is a depressing day. There are still more sad memories than happy memories of her.

On Thursday (23 April 2009), I was down with a high fever. I felt a bit uncomfortable in the morning but still carried on with my lecture. During the break at about 10:30 am, I was shivering. I knew that I would have a fever. I still lecture until 12 noon. I had Maggi mee for lunch at about 1 pm at the canteen. After that, Seng Chor came to the College to take me to the doctor in Centrepoint. My fever was 39 degrees. The doctor advised me to take the medicine immediately even before I leave the clinic. I was also having a headache and feeling dizzy. I was given medical leave for two days – Thursday and Friday.

I slept the whole afternoon. Yesterday, I slept the whole day as well but still felt dizzy. The fever went up to 40 degrees. My throat was really painful. It is still painful but no more fever.

I realized that I haven’t been drinking much water for the past two months. I used to take 2 bottles of water to work. But now, I take only one bottle and yet didn’t even manage to finish it. It’s depressing.

Friday, April 17, 2009

Better and Bad Days

This was how I felt this week...

Monday - bad
Tuesday - better
Wednesday - bad
Thursday - better
Friday - better

Normally, I feel awful during weekends.

I felt better on Tuesday when I thought of my precious Jemimah loving God and being with her Beloved.

On Wednesday, the KBU CF students prayed for me. Selvi also dropped by at my house to chat with me. I felt better in the evening and yesterday. For friends who don't really understand or don't know what to say, please don't try. It's better to keep the silence. Otherwise, it may hurt me more.

I miss her.

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

Nine Pounds of Heaven

I had nine pounds of Heaven
that I rocked to sleep at night,
and I often watched you sleeping
long after turning out the light.

I'm sure the angels missed you
although crazy as it sounds,
Heaven must have felt quite empty
when they loaned me those nine pounds.

My heart is now that empty
and I miss you day and night.
But as I hold onto your memories,
I know now, Heaven is alright.

I'll always hold you in my heart,
'til once again I behold your face
in a Heavenly celebration
when He calls me to that place.

(A Beautiful poem from a dear friend. The original author is unknown.)

How I can move on...

** Remember her present, and not her past. Jemimah is with God. Jemimah is happy.

** Focus on God and others. Don't focus on my emotions, feelings and circumstances.

** Allow God to comfort me and strengthen me.

** Pray and be prayed for.

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

Row, row, row your boat

The tune of this nursery rhyme is credited to Eliphalet Oram Lyte in the publication The Franklin Square Song Collection (1881, New York) which also indicates that he adapted the lyric:

Row, row, row your boat,
Gently down the stream.
Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily,
Life is but a dream.

Extracted from,_Row,_Row_Your_Boat:
The lyrics have often been used as a metaphor for life's difficult choices, and many see the boat as referring to one's self or a group with which one identifies. Rowing is a skillful, if tedious, practice that takes perfection but also directs the vessel. When sung as a group, the act of rowing becomes a unifier, as oars must be in sync in a rowboat.

The idea that man travels along a certain stream, suggests boundaries in the path of choices and in free will.

The third line recommends that challenges should be greeted in stride while open to joy with a smile.

The final line, life is but a dream, is perhaps the most meaningful. With a religious point of view, life and the physical planet may be regarded as having equivalent value as that of a dream, such that troubles are seen in the context of a lesser reality once one has awakened. Conversely, the line can just as equally convey nihilist sentiments on the meaninglessness of man's actions. The line is also commonly sung as "life is like a dream" rather than "life is but a dream", possibly to sound happier, less meaningful, and more appropriate for its audience of young children.


The last line of the song strikes me few days ago – “Life is but a dream.”
I asked myself –
“When can I get out of this nightmare?”
“When is this nightmare going to end?”